A Glimmer of Hope!

So I found out that as far as all the immunological testing I had done, everything is good. Nothing was found that could have caused the miscarriage. So this is definitely an answered prayer. I am still waiting to hear about my clotting test to see if I will need aspirin during my next pregnancy but that is definitely manageable. We are now one step closer to starting our follistim cycle. I have to go in on March 9th for a 21 day progesterone level to see if I ovulated or if I will need medicine to start my next cycle. Please continue to keep us in your prayers and thank you for all your prayers so far. The last couple months have been very stressful and overwhelming and we are just starting to have a little glimmer of hope again. We know that God will provide.

Never Doubt God

I came across this verse the other day in Bible study and then today in a blog and I wanted to share it with everyone who is going through a trying time right now.

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And Let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. But if any of you Lacks Wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

James 1:2-8

Great Poem!!

I came across this poem when reading another blog. It really hit it on the nail for me. I printed it out and put it up in my house so that I can read it daily!

If God brings you to it,

He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God,

Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.

Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God.

Germs, Germs Everywhere!

So the Hatfield Family is sick. Tuesday night I was up all night feeling like I was dying so I went to the doctor on Wednesday and found out I have Strep Throat. Not Fun! Well Daniels throat hurt a little but went away so he thought he was ok. Well he started to get congested and developed this nasty cough with a general achy feeling all over. He ended up going to the doctor to find out that he has pneumonia in his right lung. He is in the bed now. Please keep us in your prayers as it seems its one thing after another here lately. Also pray that we are both well by Mid March when we are suppose to start our injections. Hope everyone else is staying well!

Be Careful What You Wish For!

I just wanted to share a story about my Valentine's Day Dinner. Let me start off by saying that in all we had a great Day. We started with a movie and ended with a dinner. We went to Charles Anthony's to eat dinner. That is our favorite restaurant and we eat there every time we have a date night. So we got there around 6pm and we knew we were going to have to wait. There were a lot of people. The wait time, we were told was an hour and a half. Well in the car ride to the restaurant I had told Daniel that I hoped that if we had to wait a long time there would be a seat for me. I had on these really cute shoes that were very tall with a very tiny heel. You know the kind that are super cute but not very practical to wear. Anyway as soon as we got in and gave our name this older gentleman offered me his chair. He was really sweet and would not take no for an answer. So I sat down. I had gotten my wish. Soon after sitting the little old lady and her friends who were sitting beside me got up to go eat so Daniel sat down and here came a young married couple about our age to sit next to me. The chairs were all very close and you could hear every conversation. I wish I could not of heard theirs. Apparently the girl was 2 months pregnant and went on and on about how she will never breastfeed because its gross and disgusting and how she already has a schedule figured out so she still has a life and doesn't have to stay at home with her baby all of the time and then my personal favorite, how she could not wait to not be pregnant anymore so that she could have a margarita. Yes she said as soon as she was home for the hospital she was gonna have a night of margaritas. I wanted to say something to her but I didn't. I wanted to slap her but I didn't. I wanted to get up but my feet would not let me. So I sat there for 30 min. listening to these ungrateful people talk about how this sweet baby was just so inconvenient. Life can be cruel sometimes. Things like that really bother me and for obvious reasons. But we were called to have our dinner and we sat down, ordered, got our salads, prayed, ate and had a great conversation and I didn't feel so down after that. My wonderful husband has a great way of making me feel better. I love him!!

This is us just before leaving for our Date. Excuse the Mess!!!

Oh and we were in the Montgomery Advertiser yesterday. This man was at the restaurant taking pictures of people waiting on Valentine's Day. We of course look thrilled. LOL

Hope everyone had a blessed Valentines!!!

Immunology?

So today I had an appt. with an immunologist. My mom was recently diagnosed with an immune disorder that is hereditary so I made an appt. with him to see if that could be the reason for the miscarriage. My RE suggested this.

So after taking a long history he doesnt think I have any immune problems. He thinks I would be more sickly and things. I used to be sick all of the time but about two years ago I had my tonsils out and my deviated septum fixed. Since then I have had one sinus infection and thats it. Nothing else. So overall healthy.

Anyways he says that most of the time when an immune disorder is the cause of a miscarriage you have trouble getting pregnant. Yes we have had trouble getting pregnant but that is because I dont ovulate. I have only ovulated twice in 3 years and I got pregnant the second time I did. This leads him to believe there is no problem. I did have some bloodwork today and he is going to check some basic things that are the most common but other than that everything is fine in that aspect. It will take about 3 weeks to hear from this bloodwork as it is being sent to California.

I am still waiting on the results of the clotting tests.

One thing he did say was that I could have, if anything, a small immune disorder that was caused from taking Cortef. For those of you who dont know, I was misdiagnosed with a disease back in 2004. I was told by an Endocrinologist that I had Addison' s Disease, which is a very rare disease. He started me on Cortef which is a steroid. After being on it a few months I started feeling horrible. I explained this to him so he increased my dose. Well I then gained 70lbs in 3 months. That's right 3 Months!!!! I complained to the doctor about this and he proceeds to tell me that I am just eating too much...I had not changed my eating habits at all. So I decided to get a second opinion. I went to a new doctor and she ran some tests all to discover that I did not have Addison's disease and that by taking Cortef it had given me Cushings Syndrome. This is why all my weight was gained in the stomach and face. (Of course having PCOS was helping this weight gain tremendously). So I was taken off of the medication and things started to normal out. I was so depressed about the weight gain though that I didnt even do anything about if for over a year. Then I started to try but with PCOS it is a very very difficult battle. If you have it or know anything about it you understand this. It took many trys and failures but I have lost about 40lbs of it so far. Back in the healthy range anyway.

Its been a few years but the doc thinks this could have messed with my immune system some. We will see though.

On another note he told me that many many women lose their first pregnancy which we knew but he explained it very well. He said your body is like what is this? This isnt suppose to be here so it attacks it. But the second time around it is used to it. So that's what we are hoping.

Oh and for those of you wondering, we did try to take legal action against this doctor but he had put down a completely different diagnoses. Basically experimental. He had covered his tracks really well. And even though he wanted me to get a medical bracelet for Addison's and even gave me Cortef which is for Addison's there was nothing we could do. Still disgusts me!

A trip to Mobile

So we are back from our trip to Mobile. We drove 3 hours to get there, were there for 1 hour, and drove 3 hours back. We had a consultation with our RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist) today. This is the first time we have seen him since the miscarriage. Overall it went really well. We discussed alot of things and I feel like he has met all of our needs. I am getting checked for Antiphospholipid antibodies to see if I need to be on a low dose Aspirin or Heparin during my next pregnancy. We asked for this test because they don't usually run it until you have 2 or more miscarriages but we didn't want to wait if it could be prevented now. Also we discussed more monitoring during my first trimester. He said its not usually their protocol to keep you after a healthy heartbeat is detected on ultrasound because there is only a 5%-10% chance you will miscarry after that. (We knew this before that's why we let our guard down and thought that it was finally gonna happen). Insurance companies only cover 2 possible 3 ultrasounds so if we have any other ones it will be out of pocket. This is fine with us...everything is out of pocket to get us there why should we start being stingy with money then? He felt that it wasn't really necessary since more than likely it was chromosomal/genetic but he totally understood our concerns and said they would perform every request we have. If they get ready to release us to my OBGYN and I am not ready, then all I have to do is tell them and they won't release me. If I want weekly ultrasounds or blood work or anything else all I have to do is tell them. He said whatever makes us comfortable he will do. So we are really pleased with that.

I have to go in for blood work tomorrow (in Montgomery) and then once my cycle starts I have to go in on day 21 to get my progesterone checked. From there when my next Cycle starts we should be able to start injections again. That puts it around the middle of March. Of course it will all depend on that initial ultrasound and blood work to make sure my lining and levels are where they should be but he is confident that is when we will get to start.

So we are officially back on the TTC (trying to conceive) wagon. Please continue to keep us in your prayers. Its very time consuming and expensive and emotionally draining but totally worth it. I was a nervous wreck during this pregnancy so I cannot imagine how insane I will be once I am pregnant again.

On another note. Daniel and I started running again today. Running in cold weather is not fun! But I gotta do it. I've gained a few pounds since the miscarriage (I'm an emotional eater) that I have got to get off. I have a little over a month to do it so it should be no problem. Running is a stress reliever for me anyway so its a good thing.